Without regaling the full story (cue clapping and cheering from the assembled peanut gallery) I will just share that we almost lost him. A high risk, fertility drug pregnancy, gestational diabetes, and an OB GYN that was new and not comparing weekly sonogram tests results almost cost us the joy of this child. We’d come within a day or two of him being stillborn.
Unthinkable. I’ve come close to losing some of the most precious things in my life, and have even lost some a few of them as well, but none measures to the level of that.
Twenty three years is a good measure of time that’s passed in the blink of an eye. I think of myself those many years ago, as a new mother and I barely remember what I was like – or what it felt like to be me…until…I flash through the moments of Abe’s life - like snapshots in time that happened only a moment ago. I remember the exact weight of him on my chest as he napped, the smell of his bubble bath as he built castles on the tub walls with foam blocks, the sound of his unrestrained laughter as he wrestled with Steve, the force of him as he ran towards me and jumped into my arms. My senses come alive and I am that mother again, at 26, at 33, and 44. Small and not so small moments, pivotal times in his life and mine, wound together in this birthday dance in my head.
Side by side, our first 23 years couldn’t be more different. At 23, I’d never lived alone, was married for three years, would soon buy our home (where we still live today), had had two miscarriages and felt “settled” in my life. Abe’s 23rd year finds him dating, exploring life and searching for the road that best suits him. With a few years of college under his belt, he carries a passion for and more awareness of (and activist activities in) individual rights and social injustices than I will ever have. He’s traveled to Europe for two weeks on a French Horn music tour and lives on his own. (Not counting Epcot, his dad and I have been to Canada and about 20 miles inside the Mexico border J).
|The Morgan Three today ~ lucky me!!!|